Hahay, grabe jud ko ka istupida! Gahi ug ulo ug labaw sa tanan super ka GAGA. Yeah, dapat ko tawagon ana ky dli man ko kasabot. Cge lng love ako ginapairal. Ingon nila, utokan man daw unta ko, so ngano daw dli ko kabalo mag-isip? Ayaw nlng ko ninyo pangutan-a kay wla pud ko kabalo sa solid na rason nga ngano.

Tingali tanga lng jud ko. Suya noh, cge ko reklamo nga gikapoy nako, na gusto nako mahappy ug bisan unsa pa, pero ako ra man gihapon naga-decide kon magpadayon ko sa in-ani na klase sa kinabuhi or mag move on nako.

Sirado na kaayo akong huna-huna karon sa mga butang na gusto ug dli gusto nko na madungog. Ginaasa nlng nako sa Ginoo kon unsa man gani ang gusto niya mahitabo sako na kinabuhi. Ky maski unsa pa akong buhaton kon dli na mao iyang gusto sako, then wla jud koy mabuhat.

Unta lng noh, ma realize nako dayon unsa jud ang para sako. Wla nako sa posisyon karon na magreklamo ky daghan na kaayo kog desisyon na kabalo ko nga mali.

Well, kon unsa may plano sa Ginoo sako, His will be done unto me.

Life is really beautiful. Sa
tanan-tanan akong giagian karon, pasalamat jud ko ky naay mga tao na willing mutabang
sako. I know God loves me so much. Sa kadaghan sa iyang gihatag sako na trials,
I know He is building me. Murag kumuton akong dughan sa tanan-tanan nako na
gipang-again. Sometimes, makapangutana ko ngano nahitabo ni cya sa akua.. pero
always ko ma remind na happiness ang puli ni Lord ani sa akua.

Thankful kaau ko k yang Ginoo na
mismo nangita paagi unsaon nko pagkabalo sa tanan. Thank you Christian for
telling me what you saw. Lipay kaau ko ky honest kaayo ka sa akua. Thank you Rizza
sa pag comfort sa akua. To Madam Grace, wlang kamatayang pag-alala sako. To
Baruth, na sobra makamaayo sa akoa. To Melody and Barbz, na maski nag away mi,
nakasabot ghapon cla sa akua. Ug sa tanan-tanan nga nagpakita ug malasakit sa
akua,

Dli nako makalimtan tanan
nagsuporta sa akoa. Ginoo na unta ang mu-bless sa inyoha. Salamat, salamat!

Ok, this is a recap of what i have been doing on the past weeks. Yes, i know… i miss updating this blog a lot, sorry. =’( I am online most of the time but i just can’t visit friendster blog (as well as my other blogs) all the time. Unlike before, i used to have this parameter to encourage my target number of posts per month. However, as time goes by, the parameter varies. hehe

Now, to get a quick look on the activities, here it goes.

First week of May, i went to UM to inquire for MBA. I gone to USeP, my MSIS uni, to process the documents needed for my MBA. However, the Registrar couldn’t find my papers so they told me to check my documents at my previous Uni (my college Uni, UIC). Within the week, i’ve been like a ball, going back and forth to 3 universities for my fl_l<k1l\lg MBA.

Second week of May, I had my examination and interview. It was quick and i got in. This week is also a terrible one. I’ve been under financial turbulence this week. My life insurance payment is due this week as well as my credit cards and mortgage. So, i applied for loan at Citibank.

Third week of May, My loan was granted, so my dues are met and i enrolled my class.

Fourth Week of May, enrollment in the institution were i’m working and our department was tasked for the releasing of students’ grades. The department was terribly busy the entire week.

First week of June, my class starts. I enrolled in an evening class starts from 6.30pm to 9.30pm. It was easy at first but papers kept coming in - and deadlines are getting in me. I was disoriented with school life for so many years, that’s why my system was shocked with the pressures i got.

Second week of June, same as usual, no more time for watching anime and drama. But i applied for the position of Media Moderator at www.crunchyroll.com. And also, our chow-chow had her labor and we have 5 cute little puppies. Unfortunately, one died for its abnormality.

Third week of June, davaonline forum (one of the forum i moderated) was attacked by porn spams. With the help of the boss, the forum was fixed. Bisdak forum (another forum i moderated) has its own issues. I banned a member for his behavior and my action caused murmurs.. and the issue became huge. But don’t worry, it’s fixed too.

I don’t know what else to say but it’s obvious that my activities are not yet finished. I hope you enjoy reading. Till my next issue. Bu-bye for now!

I thought I am ok but what I am getting through tells me –
I’m on a sunken ship. Perhaps, I was just thinking too much about my life
ahead. I want a perfect life in my 40’s, so as much as I can, I’ll do
everything today. At my age, I now have the necessary investments though – and
it’s for the future.

I am now enrolled back to school. I’m busy preparing and
processing the documents; and dead busy looking for finances. I’m renting a
house (that cost less than half of my income), and has numerous obligations.
Sometimes, my guilty pleasure left me with an empty pocket; but it’s my
pleasure – It’s a prize for me.

Probably, starting this month, I will be very busy. Working
plus studying is more than a challenge. I hope I can be around the net again,
do my blogs and watch anime.

Don’t blame me if I seldom update my friendster blog – blame it to blogspot. Yes, I admit, I’m more dedicated to ‘fill’ my blogspot account with the weirdest entries I could feed than here. I am not discriminating (really), it’s just – I get more widgets and features in blogspot. Don’t ask me what or even inquire to name few cos if you’re not a blogger user, you really can’t relate.

Ok, change topic. I have had my incredible set of vacation last week – a magnanimous 5-day holiday! Good thing I can still chill and enjoy my life. For all you know, my life is as busy as working ants and as hell as flaming monster.

I absolutely cherish my days off – cos I have so much adventure. I madly miss the environment - the Nature itself - cos I barely smell the scent of the province. Sighs are all I can express for the wonderful creations of God bestowed upon my blurry and ached eyes. I know, I have an eye problem – maybe because of the constant use of the PC infront of me or maybe I should blame myself in behalf – cos I can’t go to bed without taking a bath. I know my eyes were tired, but I care more of the itches ill get if I’m not going to do my nightly routine.

The plan of updating this blog was made nearly a week ago. Unfortunately, my body is not willing – my mind has the will though. Don’t laugh – do you know how hard to convince the body? If you’re weak, you’re lame to follow the mind. True, right?

So there, I have few minutes left. I’m off in awhile, I do hope you’ll find my entry  amusing. Thanks for reading by the way. =)

I’m down and I’m alone – and I don’t know what’s happening to me. I hate it but it’s killing me inside. Can anyone help me? I don’t think there is cos I’m damn too full of doubts and regrets now. I don’t know what came into me but I was happy weeks back. Things changed so fast and I think I’m crashed. Can I go back 2 weeks ago? Hopefully yes – cos I need to fix something. I’m not desperate or anything – I’m just lonely. Can anyone help a lonely heart? Raise your hand please. =(

Five days ago, I had my operation. The surgery was successful and I’m well. The doctor says it was just a minor operation yet the surgery went for almost three hours. I was so tired, so helpless right after the operation. My tears were randomly flowing – the first time I saw my friends, Melody and Ruth, waving their hands outside. I don’t exactly know the feeling – I was happy yet I was sad. The feeling of isolation and the feeling of being alone – is eating the huge portion of my being. During the operation, my mom wasn’t there to hold me, no siblings to encouragement me – just a set of text messages to make me strong. No matter how grateful I am to have my friends waiting outside the operating room – still, relatives should have been there.

My friends were amazed how brave I was to get myself to surgery alone. I was never alone, I said, cos they were there. 4 days of rest is neither good nor fine to me. Sleep is selfish cos I have to lie down on my chest – the wound was on my back and it’s so uncomfortable. I still have to biopsy the specimen they took off me though. Hope everything will be just fine.

I thank everyone who prays for me - my family, relatives, friends and few special people. God bless you all!

I grew up with my mom alone. My dad passed away when I was 9 years old and my siblings have their own family. We’re six siblings - I am a menopausal baby and I have a 15 years gap with my 5th sibling.

I don’t want to make any statement against my siblings cos I fully understand – they have their own family to feed and to support. And since I am the only single in the family, the needs of mom – physically, emotionally and financially – expectedly I should shoulder. At an early age, I did not experience the freedom to buy things that I want cos I have to work to have it. I finished my students through the help of scholarship – if were not scholar, I couldn’t imagine where will I be today.

My mom – at 68 – is not sick but she has/is enduring the pain of Arthritis. As much as I wanted to provide everything that she needed, it always fails me. I lived and worked in the city – she’s in the province. Living in the city independently is not easy. I have to pay my own bills, work very hard to provide myself everything I needed.

My mom needs money for medicine. She needs her children’s presence for care – she definitely needs her family for love. Unfortunately, I cannot provide all of those. I am only human – who gets tired, who also have a dream, who also aspire for a good life.

I want my mom to live with me but she opted not to. She can’t deal the way of life in the city – she wanted fresh air, bird’s chirping, cool air breeze, trees, and good neighbors. I lived in a pad and you can’t find those there. She hated a box-type room cos she wants our comfortable and huge house in the province. She doesn’t want to stay idle in just an hour – she wants and/or needs action. Watching television an entire day will weak her. Listening to FM radio is not her type. Listening to am radio is her only past-time. She hates electronic appliances and kitchen wares – She wanted a dirty kitchen. She doesn’t want a futon cos she needs a huge bed.

Simple stuffs complicate things. These are the burden I have to deal with cos I want to and I need to. I love my mom so I managed my own frustrations. I want my mom to be happy. Making her happy is priceless.

These burdens are not really burdens afterall. It’s a dedication I adhere to do cos of love, respect and happiness.

I’m reading a book – Ancient Egypt – and their history is giving me headache. It was exciting to discover few things unknown to me; but there are some issues that I opted to ignore cos I don’t know anything more than what is written – inorder to discuss their conflicts, traditions, heritage and customs.

I’ve never been to Egypt and I’ve never been intrigue to its history – but something in its distinctive ancient history that gives me interest now. The first time I saw this book – from a friend – it never stopped me from reading it. It’s quite amusing to learn new things that are unknown to me – from the Old Kingdom to Middle Kingdom to the New Kingdom up in its late period. It’s amazing to know their extraordinary heritage and traditions. How conflicts destroyed a dynasty and how inter-relationship bonded power among the Royal Blood.

Egyptians beliefs – as I perceived it to be – are of the devil cos they are worshipping cults. I’m not in the position to make that statement though, I still have plenty unfinished portion of the book to read. Egyptians believes Reincarnation and Resurrection – life after death. These people worships different Gods and Goddesses – 9 or 8 Gods that I can’t even remember the names.

Their beliefs, however, make a huge impact in the development of their arts and architecture. Though they did not actually planned to practice it for the said category, but those reliefs are marvelous that identifies the workmanship and artistry in their times.

I know, I have much more to learn cos I am not finish yet – but I am eager to share what I have learned so far.

It will be nice if I’ll receive something from you to share about the topic I am busily working on.

Book:
Ancient Egypt as represented in the Museum of Fine Arts, Boston
by William Stevenson Smith, Ph.D.

Nicholas Sparks amazing masterpiece. I never thought I could possibly end the entire novel for a day cos I wasn’t expecting I’ll be whipped. I am amazed to know that a simple love story like this – can make me feel extraordinary. Who would have thought such story could happen; maybe it will. I am in love to the fact that a woman can be loved by a man wholeheartedly. I can never imagine that my way of expressing my emotions – writing; blogging – can essentially make a difference. Message in a Bottle is a story of love, happiness, encouragement, anger, hope, discouragement, even sadness.

I asked myself if it will be easy for me to let go – of someone I love – when time comes. I’m in love right now; and everyone knows whom I loved. If I ever lose him, will it be easy for me to let go and love another? – by action, probably yes; but emotionally, I can’t even tell. It will be hard. It will be struggling.

It’s amazing to know that a person can possibly let go of someone they thought they can’t live without – for somebody who renewed one’s existence and it’s remarkable to make someone live again. If time comes I’ll be left behind and alone, will love ever find me again?

I’m hypocrite if I’ll say I’m not hurt – saddened by the ending cos I was. I never predicted the story in the first place. Who would have thought it would be like that? Nonetheless, I cried – hard. So, are you.